sometimes it feels like I can’t control this pain that resides deep inside of me anymore, it feels like my world is slowly falling apart. lately I just haven’t been eating or sleeping much. I lay in bed unable to sleep and I've been thinking alot lately. I wonder when will things ever get better for me, when will I stop feeling this pain inside of me. when will I ever find my happiness because when I’m finally happy it goes away. I’m tired of these sleepless nights, I’m tired of crying all the time, I’m tired of feeling hurt all the time. sometimes I wish I could disappear, maybe I would be less of a burden on others then. sometimes I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so lost and confused right now, like I can’t do anything right in my life anymore. sometimes I hate myself… sometimes I just feel so alone and incomplete.