you know what I dislike? when people act like they know you so well when they don't. when they automatically assume they know everything, even when they didn't hear your side of the story. those people that constantly try to bring you down, just because they have nothing better to do with their lives. I dislike those people and feel sorry for them at the same time. I pity them for paying so much attention to other people's business instead of theirs. ffs, get your facts straight before you judge someone, you have no right whatsoever to judge unless you've been in their shoes. end off.
have you ever really thought about it? you've got this girl, head over heels in love with you. she'd do anything for you, but for some reason, you don't want to see that. you know it's there, but you just won't accept it so you try to make her go away - maybe this girl is perfect for you. and that really scares the hell outta you, doesn't it? in this weird twisted way, I know you miss me liking you, not because I want to believe it's true, but because you'll never find a girl that can put up with you like I did; you'll never find a girl who will care as much as I did, because no one will waste all their love on someone like you, like I did.
know that I’m not going to let you get in the way of me moving on. I’m not going to be by your side anymore even if I do break my promise but I guess you broke yours long ago. I’m not going to sit here and let you talk shit behind my back and act as if it's okay. I’m not going to be there for you anymore simply because you can never do that for me. I’m not going to be stupid and give you 282822 chances like I did in the past. I’m not going to listen to those lies and excuses you tell me everytime we fight and I'm not saying sorry first.
you smile but you're not really happy. you ask but you don't want to know. you talk but you aren't saying anything. you laugh but you don't find it funny. you cry but it doesn't really mean anything. you get up but you're not really awake. you sleep but you aren't resting. you're alive but you aren't really living.
do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? you don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. but at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. at least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take "I don't know" for an answer. you feel the way you do just because. you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.
January 27th 2012 - 23.44 pm
she's losing her mind. she's fallen behind. she can't find her place. she's losing her faith. she's fallen from grace. she's all over the place. I'm so ready to get away from everyone, as soon I can, I'm gone.
love is rare. grab it.
"love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it"
you know you're in love when you wake up and they're your first thought and you're looking at your phone to see if they've texted or called you while you were asleep. and when you go to bed, you fall asleep thinking about them. when you miss them, even though it hasn't been more than a day or so since you've last seen them. but mostly, when you put their needs before your own. when their happiness is more important than your pain. when you really love someone, you're willing to give you all and you'll know when you are.
I seriously love being in the type of relationship where you're so comfortable around each other you don't feel awkward doing anything. you can be weird and lame together, act like the best of friends and the happiest of couples. a relationship where you can call each other names and pick on each other and laugh it off and hug it out right after. a relationship where you can just be yourself and not have to worry what your partner thinks. I love that and I'm so grateful to have that.
I mean, who doesn't love the thought of someone willing to stay on the phone with you while you sleep? just listening to their breathing as they fall asleep to the sound of your voice. falling asleep with the phone by your ear, knowing they're on the other line. dreaming with you. dreaming about you. thinking about you. the sound of their calming sleepy voice is just a lullaby. you catch yourself slowly dozing off as their voice gets softer and softer and then you finally are asleep. when I fall asleep on the phone, I get the feeling of security. that there is always going to be someone there for me no matter what happens. when you sleep on the phone with that special someone, it just feels so nice to know that they're always gonna be there for you no matter what happens. it's the best thing to wake up to "hello, babe? wake up babe, wake up." the thought that you guys were together on the phone the entire night.
although a lot of people I know have lost their faith in love, I say please don't ever give up. love is such a beautiful thing. anywho, I'd just like to remind the boyfriend that I love him so much and I couldn't even imagine having anything more than you. you're my best friend. you're everything to me. obviously, I don't want anything more.
